Come back Roaring Like a Lion

 I read my bible, this verse got me today.  "My Grace is Sufficient for you, My power is perfected in weakness....".   Nothing could have jumped out at me more this week.  Everyone is going through something.  It's not about me.  It's not about you.  It's about us.  We all are facing something.   Heartache,  Emptiness.  Joblessness.  Someone has thought about taking their life out there right now reading this.  They have thought this world would not even miss them.  I am here to tell  you your God does not want that and there are people that love you.  So what if someone you loved turned their back.  It is not and will not be the end of the world.  So what if you got laid off.  Someone you loved broke up with you?  Guess what?  Something bigger is coming your way if you keep your faith and keep your head up.  Dive into the word of God and turn that heartache into a testimony.  No one or nothing materialistic means more than your God does.  Nothing is bigger than the love he has for you.  We can lose every single material possession we have and yes it is hard and yes it hurts but we have to hold our head high and know with all we are as Christians he loves us and has bigger plans for us.

Again, I have always said I will be honest with you because I can not help people by lying.  There have been times when Satan has made me feel so unloved and filled with anxiety that I have begged God to give me a pass.  Let me die.  IF you will give me a pass and let me leave this world, I will go because I am not loved here and I don't know the answers and I am scared of what tomorrow will bring and I can't handle this anymore.  I don't know how to take care of someone that has the issues I am facing.  I am having my own issues now from stress.  Please God.  Give me a way out.  The holy spirit plainly told me I knew better and there was no such thing as pass for me because I was in my right mind to know that I had 2 children who would forever hurt and that I loved them and how would that be explained.   I told him I knew that but the pain was so intense I didn't know any other way out.  He said, there is no way "out" but there is a way "through" it and it is " through me".   I knew I would never do what went through my head but I am just letting you know that when you reach the depths of depression and self hate and anxiety where Satan will drag you, he will make irrational things go through your head that you know are wrong.  I would never kill my self because I now.  I am better and I have 2 kids I have to raise.  But I have friends who have and I hurt that they took that route.  I talk to you about it because it is important to know just how low a person can get and not a soul around them will know.  Please know this was this hardest thing to ever write but when the Holy Spirit told me I would write this blog, Mental Health Awareness was always going to be a big part of this blog.  I know that 1 in 3 people suffer from it so I know I am not the first one that thought these kind of thoughts I may just be one of the few willing to put it on blast in order to help someone else.  I am not in this position now and even though I suffer from anxiety and depression from time to time, this is something I do not suffer from any longer.  But I am not going to fake my life or leave out parts that I feel could help heal someone else.

I want you to understand it doesn't even have to get that bad.  It could just be as simple as self hate.  Depression.  Not wanting to go out.  Satan letting you get hurt by others and instead of you being Christ like, you lashing back out.   That 's not a good place to be either.   I've been guilty of this recently.  It is because the stronger I get in Christ the stronger I get back lash from people calling me out on every mistake I make and pointing fingers, "see that fake Christian"  instead of lashing out,  I have to back down. Satan sends people to say things like this cause he wants you to lash out.  But who are you lashing out to?  Look at who says them. I must not be angered.  I must pray and be more like him.  Instead of letting people call me names who don't even crack the bible open affect me.  I must stand up, hold my head up and know who I am in Christ and Roar like a lion.  Know that I am the daughter of the one true King.  I am untouchable to people that want to cause me harm because he says so.  That which is out to harm me I can rebuke it,  NOT JOIN IN ON IT.  SO CAN YOU!!!!

I am telling you,  anything that is out to interfere with your life or cause you harm you can rebuke it in the name of Jesus right now. We forget our power.  Because we let Satan beat us down.  We are not a little lamb Satan can kick around.  We are a Lion that can Roar and stand strong on the word of God and and his promises and know we will be taken care of.  Every morning before you get out of that bed, you thank Your God and you tell him, "I am going to be a Lion for you today and I am going to Roar and will not bow down before NO ONE but YOU LORD!"