A true walk with God is not an easy road but it is worth it.

Talk about the Holy Spirit setting up a message.  I was working on this blog when a friend wrote me to tell me I had changed.  I am "too much".  I am "over the top" it seems.  I knew a few people felt this way because I can feel things easily now.  I am not dumb to feel the quiet hush that falls when I walk into a room.  But I am also blessed to feel the rumble of hey girl when I walk into a room of welcomes either.  I understand that the last year I have changed a whole lot.  I am being called to different types of mission type works now.  ME.  Who knew?  Not me, that's for sure.  My life sure isn't together that is for sure.  I have lead a life that sure isn't together.  But that is maybe why God is calling me to he people he is leading me to.

I tell all Christians, when you dive into the word everyday and seek understanding and you asked God to use you big, BE PREPARED.  He will do just that.  In fact,  When God started to use me, I asked him to change his mind.  The holy spirit told me he knew what he was doing.  I told him I was too broken.  My home life was broken and I was far from the one that could lead anyone. That is when I got the message that "my child, the broken will heal the broken."

I suffer from so much heart ache.  Marriage problems.  Depression.  Anxiety.  Anger.  I am far from a saint.  But you see,  our God says I am redeemed.  My past is NOT MY NOW.  It is not my today.

Anything anyone says about me, even the people I think love me the most can not hurt me.  Because I am covered and protected.  My God has a plan and I will follow it through.

My walk with God has nothing to do with a building I attend.  It is a personal walk with God.  It is reading the word and listening to the holy spirit and letting him guide me.  It is knowing "friends" will walk away but "family" may be confused but they won't walk away....I know God will show them the peace they need to understand my journey.  The "friends" that leave never were friends.  I will be sent Godly friends that share the same path and understanding and actually already have.

Know this,  when you choose this path and you find this same hurt, it will be ok.  God has a plan and you will never be alone.  Never.  You will always have him and you will be surrounded by his people.  Hang in there.

A friend of mine name Lainie Hoskyn said to me this morning, " Many are called but few respond! It takes courage and strength to take the hidden talents in us and push forward against all the odds!!"

So, you guys hang in there.  Never give up.  Don't let words hurt.  Because most of the time people saying them really didn't mean the way they came out anyway.   Usually there is hurt coming from another place that made them say it anyway.  Keep loving them.  I know I am.